But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed... 2 Corinthians 4:8-9
Things like death stun me. They make an impression in my mind and sometimes they are left to the prison of my "dwelling." I know that throughout time, people have pondered the reality of death. I get that. And me, in my tender skin have only touched the outskirts of it with my extended family.
The recent death of actor Robin Williams has not been far from my thoughts. I read the articles as many do, but didn't really think it through. The initial read, I gave him the benefit of the doubt when I read 'apparent suicide'. I would read Facebook Statuses, and their words of downplaying the comparison of this to other things in the world, would be offensive to my sensibilities. I felt in my heart, that I needed to stand up for a life long friend. After all, he's been in our living room since I was a child. I agree with the quotes people are displaying. He did bring laughter. He was unwilling to conform to the norm as an Actor. He always thought outside the box, and we loved it!
So when I first read it, I thought that he may possibly have taken some pills and stopped breathing, but then as my human mind began to delve into further inquiry by the end of the day, Asphyxiation means so much more.
I didn't realize! I felt like a child that hadn't been told the whole truth. It brought me back to the time when I was a child, that my parents wouldn't let me see the movie 'Gorillas in the Mist'. I wanted to know why. Why? Their answer was because I would cry for the animals. My brain was too small to understand. My emotions were incapable of holding it well. And I agreed.
I still have never seen it.
But I guess as I am thinking through all of these things, My question of Why has always gotten me into trouble. That question was too much sometimes. And I realize now, as I am a parent how it can drive me bananas. I believe it really is a lack of patience though. Kids minds are greatly creative. It's how their intelligence is forming. I believe Robin Williams had a high form of Creative Genius. He had the world in the palm of his hand, and yet, he could not see light at the end of the tunnel. And if I let my heart lead, I am still asking 'Why'?
Laying aside the discussion of Depression, with all of the clinical understandings, I do believe that I cannot speak about what I do not know. I've listened to plenty of conversations about it being a legitimate 'pressing down' physically and mentally.
But let's look from the world's point of view for a moment. If he had all that the world would say was Success, with Money, Love, Fame, Family, and Laughter; a good reputation, and legitimate following: That makes him a ROLE MODEL, an Inspirer. Someone who leads others to follow or emulate... whether he wanted it or not.
...The world tries to make sense of it all, saying that he was a good person and that he is 'now free'. And hey, I would never refute that he was a good person, but after all that he saw in 63 years, and he says, 'Hey,I've seen it. And from here, I've had enough;'
. . .where does that leave the ones who have been holding on to that last Shred of Hope?"Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher.
"Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless."
I would love to share some things with you. That verse above was written by a man who had it all, but even ALL is not enough.
Let me tell you a Story. This man in the Bible began his life well. His name was King Solomon, the son of King David. When he first came to the throne, He sought God on how to go about ruling this tremendous kingdom he had been given. He knew that he could not rule it well on his own. He loved God! God saw his humility and gave him an opportunity to ask of whatever he wanted. Solomon asked for Wisdom to rule God's people justly. God granted him Wisdom & Wealth too, so much so, that it surpassed all of the kings of the earth that there ever was, and will be! (1 Kings 3)
But life is not a Sprint, it's a marathon, and we have got to learn how to seek God at every age and stage. He soon began to look to the things instead of looking up to the face of God.
If we do not incline our hearts toward him purposely, day by day, we can wander off the path of righteousness if we choose to disregard his revealed Word to us.
"A life lived apart from God will be meaningless, regardless of education, fulfilled goals, the greatest of pleasures, and the greatest abundance of wealth." Gotquestions.org
I see it so much today. Not only in the International Media, but up close and personal. It all begins with the way we talk to ourselves. I hear peoples' stories all the time of the destruction that goes on in their minds. And yes, I have learned this time and time again, over and over, every age, every stage, since I have been walking with the Lord, yet I still hear that voice that tries to destroy me. The difference though, is how much credence do I give it? It surprises me sometimes, on the things I believe about myself, if only for a day, because a Good and Loving God did not create the things in which I speak and Agree with. He wants my 'Whys'..?
And If I deal with this, I can only imagine the things that others deal with. I have come across many talks of dealings with a distorted image, and thoughts of suicide. To be quite frank, a lot of us have heard those thoughts...
...There is HOPE!
It is JESUS CHRIST
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul,
firm and secure. Hebrews 6:19
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid."