17 May 2016

How To Stop Being Led by Your Fears
{This article has also been published at www.calvarychapel.com}
Psalm 27:8
My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, Lord, I will seek.

I was reminded the other day of this sweet story of Hope, our daughter. When she was younger we went to Disneyland during the holidays. Amid waiting in line to take a picture with one of the Disney characters, Hope tried to go up out of turn. We had to remind her to wait, that we were all there in line to do the same thing. Finally the time came when she could go up and hug her best Disney pal.

Mind you, Hope loves animals. She's always the last of them to be cuddling the pets. So she walked up, big smile on stroll, and gave him a big endearing hug. He bent down as she touched his face and looked him in the eyes and petted his nose. We took a picture, scanning through the best of them, only to look up to see that she had continued to stay with him as he stood there. She hugged him again and grabbed his hands. He was never leaving her gaze.

One more time she hugged him and leaned in to softly say, “Do you remember me?” as if he should remember her because she watched his cartoons. I can see the moment still. It shed light beyond that costume straight into the heart of the person behind it. His hands dropped as if surrendering to his side as he fell to his knees and wrapped his arms fully around her. The hug seemed to minister to him. She smiled and skipped away as if all was as it should be. 

I am drawn to meditate on our loving relationship with Jesus, how He wants us to be with Him. I find myself so many times wanting to run harder after Him, but then the fancies of my heart lead me to veer off, and all the little cares of politeness, and the world’s view comes into play. I'd feel I need to wait in line or, what if, what if, what if….

Now it’s quite silly to compare a Disney character to our all-powerful God. It is not the route I want to take, but the heart of a child on what she is fixated on. She really cannot be stopped. When she opens her heart to the Lover of her soul, she cannot help but hold onto Him and gaze at Him.

Over time, as my children and I walk through the scriptures on scrimped moments, they have used some extemporized hand gestures, while relaying their memorized verses over and over to each other. Hope mentioned the connection of the face: Psalm 27:8, “My heart says of you, ‘Seek his face!’ Your face, Lord, I will seek.”

And it blessed me. This IS my desire––to truly seek His face. The Lord is gently beckoning us to return, for the dwindling of the first love seems evident, that one thing.

Haven’t we heard it enough? Come to Him and He will fix it. Yet we try to fix it, so we can come to Him. The Lord wants us so much to lay ALL of our worries at His feet, and seek him, seek His words for our life so that the worries will diminish. Yes, some of us have real difficulties to deal with, things that cause such anguish, and it seems impossible to find a solution. But He wants for us to COME TO HIM FIRST, and that one thing will be the worship of our hearts toward Him, and He will fulfill His way for our good.

“The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me.” Psalm 138:8

Don’t let the worries, fears, or temptations of this world lead you. Sometimes we can get ourselves into situations that keep us numb or jaded to God’s true word in our hearts. This is because we want to fulfill the intentions of our rebellious heart. We give in so easily to our weaknesses. We “feel” like we can’t stop them. And in all honesty, we cannot, absent of His hand. That is when we hide ourselves in Christ as we call upon Him. He will fight for us.

“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14

We need to go back to seeking Him in the quiet place. We need to remember that the only true thing that matters is Him. Really.

These temptations of the world will all pass away. And all the superfluous things we built our lives on, all that we sought hard after will be tossed, soon into embers, but what will stand will be our one relationship with Jesus.

“One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple.” Psalm 27:4

In a story of two sisters, where they invited Jesus over to their house for dinner, one, Martha, slaved away at the tasks at hand. She was soon bothered by her sister who sat anxiously at Jesus’ feet listening to His words and heart. She then questioned Jesus why He didn’t make her join and help her.
He answered, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:41-42

We only need one thing in the middle of a lot of things.

I pray that you are encouraged today. Just to know that you have a front row place right with Jesus. You can gaze upon His beauty, as you study His face. You will never have to ask, “Do you remember me?” For Jesus lets us know that He can never forget us. He tells us in His word, "See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands." Isaiah 49:16 
You are mine. Isaiah 43:1


  • Kimberly Beller is a mom of 4, and the wife of Caleb Beller, the director of Calvary Chapel Bible College Europe located in Vajta, Hungary. Originally from Southern California, her passion is to encourage the hurting heart and point the prodigals back home.
    Family website: www.Bellerlifesong.org
    Kim's Blog: www.KimberlyBeller.com

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